Looking for a dime in a haystack

Who said Digital Media would get you rich? It would at least not be me. For those who are interested in my finacial status, here is an update:

My second payment for Hyper Island is almost due, and I haven't paid the first one as well. So there goes another 45000 swedish crowns, or 5000 euros. So from this point I got 25000 crowns, or 3000 euros left. This is every single penny I posess. I can live with this untill somewhere around Febuary if I spend a maximum 500 crowns, 56 euros a week (I calculated the monthly rent seperatly within this model). This is not much for Swedish standards, but managable if I cut down on booze, meat and other luxuries.

Still Hyper Island needs me to pay another 85000 Swedish crowns in the near future. So I am already 60000 short and so to speak, officially rendered broke.

Before I came here I figured that the Dutch 'IB Groep' would be able to lend me money for this cause. The time between admission and the offcial start of Digital Media course was shorter than the time the 'IB groep' could process my request. So with some uncertainty I took the risk. Spokepersons from the 'IB groep' were saying, "don't worry about it, Sweden is a sober country, they know what they are doing" and the website of Nuffic was saying that Sweden has the highest valuated schools within Europe.

From all the professionals around the world who came to give us a lecture, said the Hyper Island is seen as the most or one of the most highly respected and valuated school from within the Digital Media market. But for some uncertain reason, Hyper Island did not get acknowledged at the Dutch govermental instances and I ended up without a loan. I am still not really sure why.

I tried to look for other money shooters such as CSN. They can't lend me money because I need to live in Sweden for two years. Guest scholarships in Sweden need me not to be within a KY system. And for almost every scholarship, they need me to apply many months before I knew I got admitted. The swedish goverment can't pay for me because I'm following an english spoken international course. It starts to feel like I am two steps ahead of globalisation.

Now my parents are willing to help me out, but I don't want to strip them from all their money. Second they also need it to be repaid within 2 or 3 years because I am not the only child they have.

I figured that I should be old and experienced enough to stand on my own two legs. And so I am trying. I've looked desperately for some freelance work the last couple of weeks, but somehow nothing has really worked out untill now.

Maybe I should start working in a restaurant as a dishwasher, or picking mushrooms somewhere (I got at least five years working experience picking mushrooms). But that's not how I expected to end up with a Bachelor degree Communication & Multmedia Design.

But then again, David Lynch took a job as a newspaper delivery boy to get his funding for Ereaserhead around.